Time after time
I'm trying to write and am jumping back and forth on a couple of projects.
And the one I most need to start seems to be the hardest to get going.
Why? Fear and angst. Plain and simple.
The next vampire project is to be a prequel and the story of Henri and Nathan. Henri has pretty much insisted on it *blinks*. Now I've spent three books flirting with these two characters, getting to know them. I want to do them so much justice because I've lived with them a while now.
And there in lies the crux of the matter. Their romance will be a male/male romance. Which I've never written before. I started dabbling in it in fanfiction before I slowed down my writing there. But I never got to the sex or romance part. So this is a whole new ballgame. (Take that as you will...LOL I didn't intend any innuendo.)
Henri is losing patience with me. I think once I get into it, I'll be fine. But it's writing the first part, the jumping off the cliff into the unknown that's the hardest.
Oddly enough, as I was writing this, about to say I'm finally biting the bullet and starting it, someone sent me a link to Sherrilyn Kenyon's blog. Most of the time her characters do the entries, but this one is a version of a podcast about rejection: http://acheronp.livejournal.com/
I've had the definite pleasure of meeting Sherri a few times and listened to her podcasts, before so I do hear her voice reading this. It's about never giving up.
But what struck me is a phrase a friend gave her, "Digmus Sum, Digmus Sum. Perdigmus Sum. I’m worthy, I’m worthy. I’ve very worthy." The next sentence says to "Believe in yourself and in your worlds."
Believing that I can write a m/m romance, that I've researched enough, that I have the characters directing me, that's just the impetus to dig in. I can do it. I will do it. Digmus Sum, Digmus Sum. Perdigmus Sum.
May the muses have belief
Mechele
Dinah's Dark Desire
And the one I most need to start seems to be the hardest to get going.
Why? Fear and angst. Plain and simple.
The next vampire project is to be a prequel and the story of Henri and Nathan. Henri has pretty much insisted on it *blinks*. Now I've spent three books flirting with these two characters, getting to know them. I want to do them so much justice because I've lived with them a while now.
And there in lies the crux of the matter. Their romance will be a male/male romance. Which I've never written before. I started dabbling in it in fanfiction before I slowed down my writing there. But I never got to the sex or romance part. So this is a whole new ballgame. (Take that as you will...LOL I didn't intend any innuendo.)
Henri is losing patience with me. I think once I get into it, I'll be fine. But it's writing the first part, the jumping off the cliff into the unknown that's the hardest.
Oddly enough, as I was writing this, about to say I'm finally biting the bullet and starting it, someone sent me a link to Sherrilyn Kenyon's blog. Most of the time her characters do the entries, but this one is a version of a podcast about rejection: http://acheronp.livejournal.com/
I've had the definite pleasure of meeting Sherri a few times and listened to her podcasts, before so I do hear her voice reading this. It's about never giving up.
But what struck me is a phrase a friend gave her, "Digmus Sum, Digmus Sum. Perdigmus Sum. I’m worthy, I’m worthy. I’ve very worthy." The next sentence says to "Believe in yourself and in your worlds."
Believing that I can write a m/m romance, that I've researched enough, that I have the characters directing me, that's just the impetus to dig in. I can do it. I will do it. Digmus Sum, Digmus Sum. Perdigmus Sum.
May the muses have belief
Mechele
Dinah's Dark Desire
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posted by Mechele Armstrong at 5:06 PM
3 Comments:
I really like that, Mechele - great words of inspiration and thanks for sharing them at a time when I needed that lift just a little bit. Good luck with the new book - you are so talented and I am certain you will do your characters justice.
I believe in you Michele!! You have an wesome creative sense and imagination. I don't doubt for one second that you will do justice to Henri and Nathan.
Thank you so much Karen and feyrhi. Sherri's words made me feel much better and so did both of you. hugs to both of you.
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